HUGE june 2026 entry:

HELLLOOOOOO. guys i passed my finals, thats kinda huge. the updates im gonna give are gonna be kinda random and not limited to june! but im sooo excited for #SUMMER2026 wow.

i passed!!!!
not sure if ive mentioned it before but, this was actually my second time taking the 3rd year of med school. (embarrassssingg) last year i was very depressed, taking meds that made me unable to give af abt anything... not even exams, aaand i failed my exams. i used to feel awful about it, but now i feel like it was for the best. cuz there wasnt really anyone who shared similar interests with me in my previous class, i didnt have much friends,,, which translated into me not showing up to classes. but my new classmates are really nice!! and im very happy to have made more irl friends! i cant possibly express how happy i am about this change, ive been going out more and feeling a lot better mentally ♡ a few pics from my study grind feat. my bootleg leon nendo and anki flashcards...

i still cant help but hold a grudge against medicine, for taking a good chunk of my life away. its like all of my life has revolved around studying and juggling my hobies, i never quite managed to find the balance. i feel bittersweet when i look at my achievements and think about what i will achieve in the future. i dont hate medicine, but i hate what the pursuit of it cost me in time away from the things that make me, me.

ill be an intern doctor next year, it feels so weird. hnnmmnnghghhh university tends to make me an angry person, i dont like it. i often find myself wishing i never grew up. i just wanna draw pinkslop and rot... wdym ill have to work...

junji ito artbook and exhibition!
wauhuh junji ito in my city yuuhh, i was lucky enough get the signed artbook for free!! the exhibition area was kinda underwhelming compared to events hosted in other cities but hey, it was still a once in a lifetime experience. and i got a dope ass tote bag yeyeeyaaah


pamir day (apr27) my birthday happened (a WHILE ago), i am 22 now. scary... arthritis is calling my name... i looked really cute tho

i also recieved a huge bouquet of lilliums!!! from one of my lovely angelsss, the card inside had calebs name bahasbdahjdbahda i was so giddy... no one works harder than ur girl friends vallahi

007 FIRST LIGHT: (no spoilers)
here comes the long awaited game section,,, SINCE WHEN DID YOUNG JAMES BOND LOOK THIS GOOD BRAH wow WOW WOW patrick gibson hi. hi. what did they feed you in 3d mocap... WOAHOUADJ why does he look so cute i do not recall EVER watching a james bond movie, i wasnt even interested in the game until one of my fav youtubers started playing it and WOW. im only a couple hours into the gameplay so i cant speak too much, but i really liked it so i wanted to save the rest of the gameplay for after my finals hehhee.

im excited to return to it, at some point i thought abt buying it playing the rest myself but sadly it didnt go on steams summer sale so... gameplay it is. if i every attempt drawing him you WILL know, trust.

tomodachi life!
are we plaayiinnngg??? i havent had the time to fully indulge in it cuz exams were happening but ahem, now that im free i wanna sit down and decorate my island properly to take cute pics of my miis. theyre saurr cuttee... a few of my friends have me and caleb on their islands as miis and they keep updating me with vids of them waauughhg so so cute... mahirinlings in every universe and every font... ive been screen recording my gameplay from the pc and editing the funny bits, i hope to eventually have a shrine or some page dedicated to my miis on this site ♡ ill have better pics for u soon okok, have pamimii, caleb and moeon hammy kennedy for now...



summer break! AND ARTFIGHTT
i am so excited! finally an artfight season where im not battling make-up exams gwwwahhg (u can find my acc here!) i have so many plans for this summer... i wanna read a lot, watch a lot, play a lot, and draw a lot!!!
❧ definitely wanna do daily gesture drawings
❧ wanna finish reading 'atomic habits'
❧ play the games i got from steam sales lolol (nso, subnautica,,,)
❧ made a new letterboxd acc, gonna watch a lot and review! (esp looking forward to seeing backrooms and obsession in the cinemas)
❧ will try to be less shy posting online

what are u looking forward to this summer? what are your plans? you could always tell me about it with an email or an anon post to my guestbook, i would enjoy hearing about it.

12 april 2026 entry:

yoooo guess who. yes, my bumass. its been a few months of me gaslighting myself into thinking id update the site after my exams. better late then never!!! right. siigghhhhh...

RE9 WAS AMAAZAAANG!!:(spoilers)
leon is so fine (shocker, i know!) but like deadass... before the game released, i was not too fond of his new aged look, even when watching the gameplays i had to squint thru some scenes cuz ehrm DANG UNC IS OLD FR. but his aura game stood strong, i personally find re4remake leon best lookswise but i dont want him as bad as i want re9 leon ykwim? the scene where grace called him mom unlocked my uteral chakras. if u need to know one thing abt me, its that i LOVE characters that have motherlike tendencies. (i swear my own mom loved me as a child, i do not know where this obsession comes from...) but holy shit, i need to be leon kennedy's daughter and not even in a kinky way. ALTHOUG- ahem. heh. i love questionable ships what can i say. i ship leon w everyone, victor, chris, sherry idgaf...

good purchases
- mangas: fren took me to a bookstore that mainly sells comics and manga! they had yuri and hentai sections! which was kinda crazy to me cuz u dont see stuff like that here, like ever. they were obviously all in english and pricy as hell but since i cant get stuff from abroad anymore, might as well get myself a sweat treat from here... i thought! and i enjoyed reading them a lot, which made me wanna make a small library section on here ngl. LOOK AT HOW CUTE THE COVERS AREEE


- thermal printer: kind of a random purchase, but one im very satisfied with! i was looking to get a small printer so i could add images to my journal, and came across thermal printers that you can also use with sticker paper! been having sm fun with it, its very affordable and portable!



i dont have much else to talk about, rest is all negative. like how i can never respond to any messages and have kinda lost my passion for art (again). the uni also took diciplinary action against me lol im gonna go give my second defense this week cuz my appeal about the first got approved. world feels really hard and cruel sometimes, i feel stressed 24/7. exams, my parcels getting stuck in customs, issues with uni, personal mental health issues and just a bunch of stuff i wouldnt wanna bore anyone other than myself with. been having mood swings more than usual too, i start feeling like shit out of nowhere and wanna go back to my bed to cry the day off. but maybe thats how you become an adult... life just keeps throwing things at you until you get used to it. aaahh i hope we can all be happy.

overview of november 2025:

ill keep this month short as nothing too important happened and i wasnt feeling the best so i bedrotted mostly.

games of the month!
- dispatch! [watched] (no spoilers) amazing showstopping spectacular yeyeye i enjoyed it a lot despite not being a fan of superheros! roberts build amazes me, hes very cute, hope i can find time to write about it on my reviews section...
- fallout: new vegas! [playing] very old game im aware, but fallout series has been on my list for a while! the atmosphere is very nice, i like running around in the map haha

my first cosplay !!
the taxes and the shipping costs killed me but i finally got my hands on the caleb cosplay i ordered!!! ♡ found the courage to wear it to a con thanks to one of my lovely friends accompanying me ♡ a lot more ppl than i expected asked to take pics w me, which was both sm fun and a little overwhelmingnfjdhnghjd it was an amazing day tho! i managed to find some caleb merch and got gifted small items haha ♡ i think my favorite moment was when i was waiting for the bus with my friend and someone yelled "CAAALEEB" at me, then their friends corrected them and said "no its calebs mc!" BHSABJDBAJHDBAJS double the joy for me... amazing... calebs mc... that would be me yeas...


sleepover !
after the con, i rushed back home, shapeshifted and nyoomed to another friends place for a sleepover. she cooked us yummy meals and we yapped all night, it was so much fun and i felt so sentimental for sum reason waaa ♡ ♡ not only was spending time with my friend after a looong time super fun, i also dont remember sleeping over at a friends place? like ever? so it might be the first for me hahah ♡ i love my friends saur baddd im one lucky loser


that is all i think... november has been a blur, i kept telling myself id update the site but never did... is this mind fog or adhd... maybe just me being a lazy bum :(

collect my trinkets vro...

overview of october 2025:

brrrr time goes by so fast, a good chunk of this month was spent trying to study for exams! so i didnt get to update the site much (shame), but heres a little (not little actually, this one is very long) overview regardless!

played/watched MANY games!
- silent hill f! [watched] (no spoilers) so many horror games dropped this month crazy!! i really liked the visuals of silent hill f from the trailers and stuff but for some reason they didnt hit as hard ingame? and it felt like the game ended just as it was getting good! the first ending had me left with many questions as well, but i think its too early for me to give a proper review about it. some of my friends who really liked the game suggested that i watch the other endings as well to get the whole story so i will do that instead of giving a halfassed yap haha, maybe it can be the first entry on my reviews section :3
- no im not human! [watched] (no spoilers) ough everyone and their mama has been obsessed with the graphics of this gamee, and theyre right the vibes really are immaculate. i wasnt too enticed with the lore but it definitely was a fun watch ^^ and im eating up all the au's ppl make for other characters, especially xia yizhou!!! wahhh!!! he's home!!! explodes
- YKMET: strade! [played] (no spoilers) end me bro... i had been avoiding playing ykmet bcuz i absolutely hated and i mean HATED the artstyle... and never understood why ppl we're so into it! until i saw my friend sora play it, she convinced me to give it a try ("theres woundfucking you have to play!!!" she said. bahfhshfdhd) and so we hopped on vc and played a third(?) of the endings together. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN. i cant believe im saying this abt a horrorporn game... but i lowk got addicted and finished the whole game in 3 days and unclocked all the achievements like a madman... and went down a rabbit hole of playing all the other gatobob games just to collect every crumb of ren i could find. i will make a shrine for him... i still do not like strade's fatass, besides the couch scene, for the record-

- the price of flesh! [played] (no spoilers) i told myself i would wait for a sale to get the game, but the horny snail in my ear was like "WWWWAAAHHH I WANT REN I WANTREN HHAHGGGWWWAHH" so i purchased it on a whim... imagine my devastation when i figure out fox/ren's route was only a short dlc, ough.. i really enjoyed celia and derek's route too tho ngl, i got that #lesbianism in me. suprising how gato says she started making games like this because she felt one of the games she played 'ended when it was getting good' BCUZ TPOF DID EXACTLY THATHHTHGHJFNHVGJFNB I WAS BLUEBALLEDDJEFDD im still not over anything as u can tell...

- boyfriend to death 2: fresh blood! [played] (spoilers) only played lawrence and ren's routes cuz ehrm yeah. the art is supa old but ren is still a cutiee, except when he's being a whiny little bitch crying over strade and making me wanna strangle him! but nooo, he needs to grow up and become the dilf i adore. i really liked being given the option to torture him back or put a collar on him!! 🤓🤓 lawrence's route was pretty interesting too, i was very intrigued when i read he was the only character with a consentual intercourse scene lmaooovbhfjbld the amputation part diiid put me off very slightly buuut hes cute what can i say. dont look at me.
(maybe i should've just listed the names of games im yapping off)

trinkets arrived !!
ive been making so many online purchases i cant even keep track... but look at some cutesies that came in this month ♡


cute girl at the metro!
i was hurrying to a meetup with a friend when a cute girl stopped me to ask abt my zayne plushie (and the caleb prints i was carrying lmaoo)!! first timee! i was so happy to run into someone who played lads haha (im pretty sure a lot of ppl play it but no one had recognized my plushies/keychains so far) she was super nice omg… we yapped a bit and i showed her my keychains n stuff ♡

medieval festival!
while hanging out with one of my friends, we bumped into her friends who were headed to a medieval fest and they told us they could find free tickets for us if we wanted to tag along, so we did! we were obviously not dressed to the occasion so it felt a bit weird at first but all the costumes looked pretty cool, im not a medieval fan myself nor do i drink alchol so i was ready to head back after a few laps of walking around and saying hi's to familiar faces. i had to stay around for a few more hours for the bus (we ended up getting a taxi anyway cuz it was too cold and late), so me n my friends decieded to find a table upstairs to draw! and since i was still very ykmet pilled i worked on my strade drawing haha (i was legit hearing the ost in my head lmaoo)


book fest!
randomly stumbled across a book festival, how lucky! i didnt have much time so i wasnt able to stay as long as i wouldve liked but i managed to loot some cute pieces still! i got a few gifts for my sister and mom too hehe, i love buying gifts :3


theres prolly a lot more that happened this month but i stopped keeping track after the first half cuz i was feeling like ass lmaoo

overview of september 2025:

uni started! but i havent been able to attend much, preparing a new outfit for everyday feels like such a hassle because i dont like most of my current clothes and i refuse to go out looking like a bum! i went to a lot of malls around my area but finding unique clothes that fits my style is actually pretty hard, im considering buying online sometime. ive also been pretty overwhelmed with the coursework, dreading waking up early and eventually decieding against it. i will get better, i promise!! its just uugbhhhgfggj i need to catch up cuz i dont understand anything in class haha. i was only concerned about not having friends at first but now that i do have them, i should show up and bond with them better. friends make uni bearable ♡ im not very good at making time so i havent seen some of my friends for almost half a year thats crazy. i need to message them all and plan hangouts...

neocities! i returned after 3 years to learn html again, im slowly building up the site and enjoying being able to customize everything. been enjoying taking my time to go through other peoples websites and learn about them, feels like closeknit private little community haha. think im making some friends too ♡ i still dont know jack shit abt js lmaooo maybe ill learn as my site grows

trinkets! ive been wanting to get small pink trinkets and a caleb plushie to take pictures of for the longest timeeee! i ondered a few this month but they'll prolly arrive towards the end of first week of october. cant wait honestly, ive been putting off going to cute cafes for this!! so so excited.☕☕

nails! got my nails done for the first time wao! the nail artists around where i live obviously arent tiktok level good haha but i think it turned out oookay and was somewhat affordable. i felt a bit nervy during the process cuz the lady lowk made me feel bad by huffing and puffing everytime my skin bled... mind u i never once complained abt the pain, even though she was being pretty rough w the filing. she also gave me a doubting look when i said i was used to having long nails LIKE MAAM I KNOW MY SHITTT STOPP MAKING ME FEEL LIKE ASSS IM HERE FOR UR SERVICE NOT UR SHADEEE damn. daaamn. but i was smiling, nodding and being respectful the whole time bcuz i dont like confrontation. id yap more abt all the little stuff that triggered me but its kinda funny how heated i am over a nail appointment like it should not be that serious lmaoo. i was too shy to raise my complaints so ill try to be more vocal next time 💔


other?
i tried matcha and it was ass... 🍵devastating news for me... i also attempted making miso soup but it uhmm wasnt veru good, currently rotting on my kitchen counter...(im scared of doing dishes w long nails)